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Hi guys! I feel so bad I haven't written anything for quite awhile. It's been super duper busy and crazy for me for quite sometime.
Did I tell you I'm working already? After 12 years of being a full time mom with just some minor rackets on the side, I am now back to work. It is not an 8-5 kind of work though but it takes in a lot of my hours. My husband, brother and I got into business and now I have to contend with HR duties (level of stress: Red Alert), lots of coordination and accounting. Of course, I also have my commitment to you my buddies in motherhood here at TheGoMom. And truth be told, I would rather write hehe but my husband says we need to eat.
The adjustment is quite tough on me and I guess for my kids too. For my kids, mommy is less available, always preoccupied and oh so cranky. For myself, I am constantly wavering in between feelings of guilt that I'm not able to spend more time with the kids (especially my toddler) and trying to get some work done.
Right now, I'm trying to find the happy balance between all the things in my plate. Ang dami eh. Work. Blogging. Social media chika update from Facebook, Instagram. Working out in the gym. Reading. Hanging out with family and friends. Spending time with the kids. Tutoring the kids. Household errands. Spending time with the husbandry. And of course, sleep.
In my crazy fanatical way to restore balance, I thought I could do away with removing some things off my plate ...
Like, sleep. I tried cutting it down to 6 hours a day. Oh men, I was cranky and my tongue was biting off my kids every second. Plus, I spent more time laboring over a menial brain task because my brain was half dead. Engk, can't cut back on this. I need my full 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep.
Gym. Gym takes an hour for the work-out, not to mention the commute to and fro. But nooo!, my weight ballooned to epic proportions! And more than that, I don't feel good. I feel sluggish and ironically constantly tired. My body needs that work-out.
And then I stopped checking on the kids homework figuring they are already big. Sadly, their grades dipped. I still have to check on them and monitor their homework and quizzes, especially for my 11 year old.
So I guess my ramblings has led me to deduce that everything in my plate, I do need. I cannot just remove one or drastically cut another (ok, maybe I can radically cut my social media hours). Everything there is what I am. I just have to organize my priorities and give the proper time for each area of my life. As I said in my New Year 2015 post, "discipline and order" will be my resounding mantra for the year.
What do I choose to do today, tomorrow or next week? How many hours should I spend on it? What time should I do it? How much time should I spend on it? And stick to it.
In the end, balance is making choices from the things in my plate. And being at peace with the choices I have made.
Finding Balance,
Glad I stumbled upon this post. I could totally relate to it! Juggling is really a challenge for me as well. I wish I could manage my time better and find balance like you do. I especially like the part when you said we should be at peace with our choices. I might need to post that where I can see it often. Thank you for the reminder.
Hi Jing! I’m in constant struggle to find balance as well. Sometimes, I am on top of it and everything seems to be balanced but there are times when everything seems to be just falling apart. For the latter, reminding myself that I have to be at peace with my choices helps me calm down. Most of the time it works and I’m not a calamity but there are times that doesn’t even work at all. In the end, I think we just have to give ourselves a break and be kinder to ourselves:-)