My daughter has been very difficult lately. And difficult is an understatement. She whines excessively and will not take no for an answer. Her wails can reach the depths of the earth and my patience. And she even blurted out the dreaded word — I hate you mommy!

Now that’s it! I won’t take that kind of disrespect in my home. So I dragged her out of the gate and left her outside for a few minutes and she screamed even louder. She was out of control and I was out of control and it was a total mess.

This situation dragged on deeper and deeper for maybe 3 weeks with lots of hurtful words coming out from my mouth and hers. It was a stressful time for both of us. She resents me and I am beginning to become distant. I was even beginning to play favorites. And so I pulled out my magic diary and poured out all my thoughts and there lies a tiny ray of light.

It’s back to school from a Christmas break and she is adjusting, I didn’t consider that. I have been expecting her to act like her 8 year old brother but they are 2 1/2 years apart and their personalities are light years away. I realized I didn’t give her enough attention, and she was getting it now, only negatively. I made a mistake and I need to pay her back, big time. It will take time. She is a very smart girl and she remembers and occasionally reminds me of the hurtful words I have said in the past. In my painful thought process I listed down who my daughter is. What she likes and dislikes – though I know most of it already – writing it down made me realize I’m not showing her the love and respect she needs. Imagine failing in something as basic as giving her my full attention when she speaks to me. She doesn’t like a nod, “uh-huh” or “yeah” she wants to hear what I think – full phrases and sentences. Now that I come to think of it, all that she wants from me are the basics – attention, respect and lots of L-O-V-E!